I love you yet I love me more
Its not that I want solitude I just cope better with it
Its not that I don’t want your security I’d rather provide my own
Its not that I don’t want guardian yet I feel better looking after my own possession
Its not that you wouldn’t suffice I choose not to let you in me that way or to that extent,true you could do yet I can’t do without me being able to find pleasure in what makes me in that moment
Its not that I wanted you out its just that I can’t let you in on the terms set by
convention and if we try my terms hurting you would be a pain worse than letting you go
Its not that I am not choosing you well I am not but I am choosing for you a life that will be a better suit for you
Its not that you deny me its what I am denied at your being in me
Its not that I have nothing to give I am capable of emotion yet I give on my terms and on my points of highness I can give yet I give in the place of best convention
So I might end up what you think I will end up as yet for me its better than being what I can’t cope being its better than being in a place of limbo because you choose not to I love you yet I love me more I love and I will not break me intetionally and the things I provide myself will continue that consitency and its not hurt I fear yet it’s loosing me I can’t stand call it selfishness call it emptiness I call it my turn to survive and keep alive what I need the most…me.
I love you truly I do yet I love me intensily more.
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