Irreversable

I looked back
looked forward
brought back, searched memory resoivour
caught my heart in my concious mind and...
told myself "don't be scared"

shaking heart in relentless caution
cold hands of fear and unknown future events of consequence

irreversable fumbles
irreversable words
irreversable acts
irreversable conversations in 1 account

Oh God... "i don't know who else to call"

Darkness I brought it close
made acquitance with unstability
n now... i fear.
n now...i have no answer to solve the hand made mess
but..... yet...... oh?, I don't know.


Jesus (long silence) .....H-e-l-p? please help.